Every new year a quote comes to mind that goes, “There are years that ask questions and years that answer.” I felt that 2015 was one of those years that finally answered after having quite a bout of years that had been asking questions endlessly. It’s not to say that 2015 was the year that I finally knew what I really wanted to do with life, but it’ll be a set of twelve months that I’ll be looking back at with fondness.
2015 was a pretty okay year. There were many firsts, many goodbyes, many life-changing moments for loved ones, many reunions, and many things to gain lessons from. Looking back, it was jam-packed with tiny, golden stories to write home about, musical rediscoveries (i.e. K-pop and eighties music), bucket list items finally ticked off the list, meetings with old friends and family whom I hadn’t seen in years, and new old-friends with people who were already within my usual radius of routine but whom I couldn’t help growing closer with in the last year.
In 2016, one of the things I thought I’d focus on was the temporariness of everything and how I should remember to appreciate the now-ness of things. 2016 marks my fourth year in having stepped into this country, and if there is anything that I have learned since, it’s that the moment you step out of your comfort zone, you do realize that the world is bigger than yourself and it’s out there for you to explore.
I’m well aware that I take all this living-away-from-home-in-a-new-country for granted. I forget that on most days I’m still a tourist marooned in an entirely foreign land. It can get difficult, but the ride has been mostly life-changing and chock full of lessons, all the way from learning how to work the washing machine, paying the rent and valuing the awesomeness of a $6 voucher for laundry detergent, to being okay doing things on your own while still being able to have fun.
So this year I’ve got my eyes set on being grateful for where I am now as much as I can and trying to see the good in every day. Matisse once said that there were always flowers for those who wanted to see them, so here’s to doing just that and seeing flowers for 2016!
Flowers were on display in the Flower Dome at Gardens by the Bay, Singapore. Pictures were edited with VSCO.